It’s Five Minute Friday with lovely Lisa-Jo!
Set a timer and just write. Don’t worry about making it just right or not.
For me? An exercise in letting go and letting words flow. Five minutes only. {yes, I do set a timer and it quacks like a duck at 5 minutes, which totally makes me smile}
Today’s prompt: Close {which I read wrong and went with close as in shut, not close as in nearness – whoops!}
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And go…
There’s a door I’ve been hovering around lately. When the door first opened, I stepped fully in, with great joy and anticipation. But the longer the door has remained open, the more I have creeped back towards it, trying to get out.
Through the door is where God asked me to go, but it’s hard in there. And with one foot in and one foot out, I’ve been trying really hard to close that door this year. I made up my own mind that the door would be better off closed.
He has different plans. No matter how hard I’ve tried to slam that door and walk away, God keeps gently opening it again and again, asking me to walk fully through with Him. My stubbornness makes me dig in my heels. But He has plans for me.
And even though the other side of the door is hard, He knows that is where I will grow the most. The hard produces the most fruit in us. If I close that door, the growth stunts. There will be no fruit-bearing.
I want that door closed, but He knows better, and I’m starting to see the holy in leaving it open. So I’m taking His hand, letting Him lead me all the way through, and closing the door on my own plans in exchange for the best He has for me.
Stop.
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Go read more fabulous posts about being close {the right topic!} at Lisa-Jo’s place today!
I think lots of writers went with close (as in shut) and both directions have been good to read. I too have had a door this year. It has been hard, but in hindsight I recognize there were things I needed to learn, and they were found on the other side of that door. I loved your post!
I can so relate to this! There was a door I went through with great eagerness and anticipation a while back…I looked at that same door today and wished I was going through a different one. But God has a plan – for both of us!
It’s always interesting to see the different directions writers go with the prompt!
Usually I think of an open door with excitement – you know, new opportunities and all that. But you made me think about sometimes an open door represent hard things. I like your line, “The hard produces the most fruit in us.” I think you are right …
Great post!
This is awesome! I can definitely relate. May you follow where God is leading you.
Visiting from FMF. You captured the struggle so well. Letting go of my own plans in exchange for his, accepting the hard even knowing it will be produce fruit and growth in the long run, is such a big step of faith. Blessings!
I wonder what the door is. Is it an opportunity to ministry more to moms of boys. Thank you for your ministry over at MOB. I have 3 boys and have loved being ministered to from all of your work. Thank you!