Oh ladies – I could write a book on this subject…

I have been a worrier for as long as I can remember.

As a little girl, I would lay in the corner bedroom of our house on the corner at night and every little sound would send my mind spinning. We lived in a VERY safe and quiet neighborhood, so there was little to no basis for my worry, but I remember it vividly nonetheless.

{Side note: We did have a fire at my house when I was in second grade, so that may have contributed to my worries, but I don’t remember that being my main worry.}

This worry mostly plagued me at night when I was trying to fall asleep. As an extrovert, I’m pretty sure most people thought I was just happy-go-lucky all the time. And being a busy girl through high school and college probably helped keep my mind from too much worry.

I heard plenty of Scriptures on the subject…

That is why I tell you not to worry about everyday life—whether you have enough food and drink, or enough clothes to wear. Isn’t life more than food, and your body more than clothing? Look at the birds. They don’t plant or harvest or store food in barns, for your heavenly Father feeds them. And aren’t you far more valuable to him than they are? Can all your worries add a single moment to your life? ~Matthew 6:25-27

I really did pray about this very thing many of those nights while laying awake…

And why worry about your clothing? Look at the lilies of the field and how they grow. They don’t work or make their clothing, yet Solomon in all his glory was not dressed as beautifully as they are.  And if God cares so wonderfully for wildflowers that are here today and thrown into the fire tomorrow, he will certainly care for you. Why do you have so little faith? ~Matthew 6:28-30

But it was always still there.

So don’t worry about these things, saying, ‘What will we eat? What will we drink? What will we wear?’ These things dominate the thoughts of unbelievers, but your heavenly Father already knows all your needs. Seek the Kingdom of God above all else, and live righteously, and he will give you everything you need. ~Matthew 6:31-33

Until I shared my worry with someone else and we sought Him together to free us from our mutual struggle.

She and I did a study called Walk Out of Worry {I’m pretty sure it’s out of print now}. I don’t even remember if the study was all that great or not, but I know it was simply in the act of bringing light to my struggle and working through it with another believer that God brought a breakthrough and peace for both of us.

Women aren’t the only ones who worry, but I do feel {in my non-expert opinion} that we tend to internalize it more and let it control us. I think that is why sharing it and working through it EXTERNALLY is the key to overcoming it in any way.

I consider that time, that study, the turning point in my struggle with worry.

Yes, I still worry, but I do not lie awake in bed at night going through every possible bad scenario I could encounter. Becoming a mom and watching the boys grow up has brought some of this up again, but I now know what freedom from worry feels like. I’ve known the bondage and I’ve know the freedom, so I know I can make a choice to acknowledge the worry and move past it.

Besides, His Word tells us…

So don’t worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will bring its own worries. Today’s trouble is enough for today. ~Matthew 6:34

And I know I can take Him at His Word.


Where are you at with worry?

If you’ve found freedom from a battle with worry, please share your story!

If you still struggle to move past endless worries, please let me have the privilege of praying for you today.